The Forgotten Rose

WOW! I can’t believe I made it to day 8!

New P90X update video on YouTube:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=28dWOedVAro

I learned a lot about my body and what it can do…and what it can’t do this past week. I believe we under-estimate our body, and because of that, we either do things that destroy our bodies…or we do things to improve our bodies.

I done things most of my life that have taken their toll on my body. As a result, I am dealing major health issues - arthritis, angina, high blood pressure, etc. I wish I would have listened to the people who were trying to help me instead of the people who were just as deluded as me.

Once upon a time, I was a member of “fat acceptance” team. I understand the need to accept yourself as you are, but does that mean that you completely stop doing things that will improve your health?

I bought into the lie that being obese was ok, and I was healthy…right? I would nost listen when people warned me that being over 250 pounds would destroy my body because, “fat is beautiful”.

I was wrong.

We do pay for what we do to our body, whether it be good or bad.

Self acceptance is a good thing but don’t deceive you into believing that you will always be healthy. Your health choices will effect your body somewhere done the road.

Today is the day of decision.

Today is the day of change.

What are you waiting for?

God bless you,
Rita

PS. The website is up and running.
www.mission-freedom.com

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I was up until 3:00 a.m. last night trying to figure out how to get the website up and running. I’m learning but it is taking time.

When I felt led to explore internet ministry, I had no idea that God would be using my weight loss journey to minister to other people.

It’s something how we get our ideas and opinions of how things should look, feel or be…when God wants to do something totally unexpected. That is how it is with stretching me to create a website about HIM and this journey to health, among other topics.

Anyway, P90X Day 4 and 5….almost.

I posted a video on YouTube about why I don’t do yoga.

Here is the link for that: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ydeLrjmJCKY

I did an hour of basic stretches yesterday…not yoga…and it felt great! I kept it light yesterday, and I am  making Mondays my “rest” day. I’ll do stretching exercises but mostly I’ll be letting my body rest. Plus I take my injection for the MS on Mondays, and it tends to make me a bit sick at the tummy for several hours.

Living with multiple sclerosis requires that I use wisdom and let my body do what it needs to do….like resting from P90X. I know that is not part of the program, but I don’t think Tony will mind. LOL!

Today…I haven’t even got to the workout yet. I woke up late because I stayed up so late! I am going to get right in Day 5, “Legs & Back with Ab Ripper X”, this afternoon.

My core is sore! LOL!

The Ab Ripper X is challenging mucles I didn’t realize was buried under this layer of fat! But it will pass in time.

God bless you,

Rita

http://www.mission-freedom.com

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Shoulders & Arms with Ab Ripper X.

Right now, I am feeling challenged in places that I didn’t even realize was there! It is day 3 of P90X and I am feeling the soreness everyone told me about. My core is especially sore…but in a good way.

Todays DVD was about a hour in length but I had to push “pause” a couple of times. So in all the DVD took me about 1 hour and 30 minutes to complete…but I did it.

I posted a video on YouTube about it:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1YCkxTvZio 

Tomorrow is Yoga, and I don’t do Yoga. So I will do some basic stretching and just let my body rest for the day.

It is exciting to challenge myself and see what I can accomplish. It is a feeling that I am not familiar with because I tend to give up easily. I am not sure what changed but something did, and now I have this “fight” in me to get healthy. A “fight” to beat the pattern that has plagued my family for generations. The urge to give up and die an early death.

I don’t want that for myself.

I did notice something I have not noticed before. I am sensitive to cheese. I love cheese, and since I began my weight loss journey, I have cut back on cheese…only allowing myself 1 - 1 ounce cube per day…if I want it. It is about the size of a dice.

Last night, I had very cheesy lasagna. It was delicious. I have to admit that. But this morning I woke up with my sinuses feeling clogged and I felt very sluggish. I am apparently sensitive to dairy products. Something I am going to be investigating further in the days ahead.

Anyway, it is late and I need some rest.

God bless you and good night,
Rita

I got P90X yesterday.

I saw the infomercial and over the past year, I kept watching. Then I took the plunge and ordered. I am a bit exited but apprehensive because I have so much weight to lose. I am also inspired because I am seeing people on YouTube who are as big as me, and some are bigger, who are doing P90x.

Anyway, I reviewed the program yesterday…and today…I started. Now I am not using the meal plan but using the food list to create one of my own. The meal plan contains alot of foods that I can’t eat…some I am even allergic to. But I am using the food list to follow the diet plan as close as possible.

It is challenging to re-learn to eat but this is something I have needed.

As for the workout.I did the “Fit Test” this morning. I couldn’t do one push up. I did 30 seconds for the wall squat. I barely made it through the Fit Test! It was embarrassing….but the goal is to get better.

Walking is not working for me. My body is too use to walking now. I need something more challenging and P90X is it.

This afternoon I will do my first workout. “Chest and Back with Ab Ripper X.” I am also taking before picutres. I’ll post those later this evening.

God bless you,

Rita

Over the past couple of weeks I have been praying for guidance. I want to lose weight but can’t seem to “get up and go”. I know what I have to do but doing it is a problem. I wasn’t sure why until I began to seek God’s guidance about the matter.

I discovered there is a HUGE difference between being “interested” and being “committed”.

To be “interested” is having the desire to lose weight, and knowing what I should do about it. But then I find excuses, or I get bored, or a get depressed, or I give up, or whatever….and I forget all about wanting to lose weight. Being “interested” in losing weight is like being fickle.

Mr. Webster says being fickle is: marked by lack of steadfastness, constancy, or stability : given to erratic changeableness. 

On the other hand, being “committed” means that I am taking definate actions to make the lifestyle changes necessary to getting healthy and losing weight. I don’t lose focus…even if I have a bad day! I don’t look to the left or the right but look straight toward my goal.

So where does that leave me?

I’m fickle.

The realization was like a slap in the face. I talk a good talk but don’t walk the walk. God held a mirror up to my face in response  to my prayer and I don’t like what I saw.  Change must come or I am going to die a very early death. I can’t escape that fact any longer. My body hate me and the abuse I put it through. I’m scared. I’m terrified but change must come.

I don’t want to die before my time.

One thing I like about the internet is all these wonderful online tools for support and motivation. Today, I am choosing to commit. I am choosing to change. I am choosing health.

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